15 Aug 2020: Writing Again

Melbourne, Australia, 16 Aug 0030am

The impetus to write again looms in my peripheral senses. It somehow reminds me to diary my days. Life is fragile, and so are second chances. 

I have been thinking, what if I were to be gone the next day. Would there be anything left unsaid?

Given a second chance at life has changed my perspective in many things. Thankfulness is definitely one of my gained traits. Not that I wasn't thankful before - just even more so now. 

One day I will write about my car accident and near death experience(s). Even now, I battle the complications of that event, and am still fighting to get better from last month's surgery.

I find myself motivated and crawling through milestones, telling myself everyday, I want to make everyday worth it. For my girl.. to do my best to help her grow into a woman God intended her to be. For my family... To be the better wife, and the better daughter I can be.

I dedicate this to all those dear to me, especially my girl, who might one day read this, to know the journey mummy is going through.. and find strength to fight her own future life battles.

The constant pain sets me back but I told myself I wanted to bake her birthday cake, and so I did. 

Me: What cake do you want on your birthday?
Fay: Ya, cake! Ya?
Me: Chocolate cake?
Fay: Ya! Chocolate cake!
Me: Mummy bake you chocolate cake for your birthday ok?
Fay: Ya! Mummy make chocolate cake!

Happy 2nd birthday my 宝贝，小可爱!

Can't wait to see her reaction to the cake when she wakes up in the morning. 

You have been God's gift to us. Our miracle.

Mummy is stronger fighter because of you!🥰

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